progress 12/30

big jump in improvement from yesterday. to sit, to get up, just about/almost normal. very very very happy about that. upon waking up, back was straight, no weird odd angle walk in the morning. oh man, if i start the new year 100% (though it's just another day) that would be so exceedingly awesome. very happy and suprised at the big jump in improvement.

12/29

still there, but receding, thankfully. Slowly but surely it seems. It's an odd feeling sometimes, expecting a pain, and then it's not there. Or worse, not expecting a pain, and then suddenly "greeting" it. Mind is all ready to deal with it, then realizes, hey, nothing's there! and oddly, sort of miss the pain. Miss the pain? While all the while wishing it would leave. Strange, the mind always wanting.

progress 12/16

sitting is much less painful. the to sit, and the to get up. still, after extended periods, tingling in the left front thigh. though, really really grateful that i can sit in a way such that i feel completely relaxed and feel no pain/discomfort vs. no pain/discomfort, but definite muscles activating to prevent pain. This also led to sitting at the desk and leaning heavy on the elbows to keep weight off. so, feeling better, not 100% yet, but hopefully soon. right knee feeling much stronger, though still that sense of 'something's not quite right'. little by little trying to squat a bit and strengthen/exercise it. just happy that there is some sort of relief now. being painless is quite a joy in itself.

progress 11/24

begun to run again, though short distances (run/walk). have continued daily walking. kicking with right leg, no pain, though mental anxiety fear (of pain), pain upon sitting and rising is much less, and disapates faster. tingle in the front of left leg, more noticeable/replacing the left hip knot/pain. thankfully, even this though is just noticeable, but not in pain realm. morning movement is stiff and tight, though movement is comfortable, i don't feel like i'm going to break. back is tight especially when putting on right sock. putting on pants, ok, but fear remains, anxiety of pain in hip/leg. interestingly, right knee was having issues 3 weeks ago. felt like fluid was rushing in and out of the joint as i bent the knee. I could feel it with my hand upon squatting and rising. however, noticed no more popping knee when running! though it still feels a bit on the weaker side. before, i fear i had torn something. no noticeable reason for the knee to go out, out of the blue, on a thursday. it hurt to straighten it and felt swollen. i kept off of it, and have been walking as rehab. it pops when i walk down stairs. but, very happy that no popping when running now. very excited, body is coming back. have to make sure i don't push too hard, but keep moving. eager to move. very thankful for ability to move. very thankful for movement without pain.

progress check 10/1

OK, can kick the right leg now! However, still stiff in the morning and after lying down. Once warmed up though, feeling better. The "sit pain" disapates faster now as well, though still there.

Unlearn Your Pain by Dr. Howard Shubiner

"In three separate studies by MC Jensen, DG Borenstein and N Boos, there was very little correlation between back pain and MRI results." "Whe you take middle aged people without any back pain and give them MRIs, 64% have bulging discs, DEGENERATIVE DISCS, arthritic changes, spinal stenosis and other COMMON changes. Over time, in some people the MRI results get worse, but the pain decreases; while in others the pain gets worse, though the MRI gets better. (moreover)Many people with normal MRI findings have sever back pain." very very interesting. thanks Dr. Shubiner

Progress

actually able to do circles with knees now, with little to no pain. morning still not so pleasant, but faster recovery into "normal" movement. definitely on the mend. the worst is done.