"Biochemicals of Emotion...were were nervous to call them that..."

Interesting interview with Bill Moyers, talks about how mind affects healing. Very interesting, especially when talking about tms or mbs. The nervous system, affected can close or open blood pathways. In this interview at 2:26 the Dr. talks about how the mind releases chemicals that affect the nervous system. This goes right at the theory of mind affecting health, and tms...and specifically...back pain (as explained by Dr. Sarno). The mind, a LOT going on here.

Wow, some jewels in here. Dr. Pert "the 'me' that's you is your whole body (not your brain)".

More Evidence that sitting is bad for you.

Dr. Sarno tells us that in TMS, blood is being restricted to the area of pain. Dr. Shubiner says that it is the nervous system gone hypersensitive that causes the pain. This article discusses how being sedentary affects the brain, it affects the nervous system restricting blood flow. Part of the article reads:
"A well-regulated sympathetic nervous system correctly directs blood vessels to widen or contract as needed and blood to flow, so that you can, say, scurry away from a predator or rise from your office chair without fainting. But an overly responsive sympathetic nervous system is problematic, said Patrick Mueller, an associate professor of physiology at Wayne State University who oversaw the new study. Recent science shows that “overactivity of the sympathetic nervous system contributes to cardiovascular disease,” he said, by stimulating blood vessels to constrict too much, too little or too often, leading to high blood pressure and cardiovascular damage.

Could this also be a reason for the rise of TMS, MBS...back pain in general?

full article here

New Year Update, 2014

Well, I'm a bit sad to say, a little bite is back in the right buttock. To spare the details, it's been essentially since Jan 1. :(. Pissed. It came with an incredible rush one night, really severe pain, I couldn't move, i could barely walk. I somehow managed to bed and laid down face first, any movement created this sharp pain, right side, right leg, like it was on fire. i did all i could to just not move, and slowly after about 3 or 4 hours, it subsided and i had some mobility back. That was frightening. So, fast forward to now, I just tried to run, it wasn't successful. 1 mile, 3 stops, right butte. So, I went back and read some Dr. Sarno and tried to see what is sparking this again. All anxiety and fear of future, of "oh crap!" Trying to talk it down. through the day if I can sit for a bit, I'm ok, but if i stand extended periods of time, it comes back. It really sucks. At the end of the year I was around 165 or so, after this though, without running/movement, I'm back at about 175 or so. I'm sure the extra weight isn't helping.

So, while this is going on, I come upon an NPR article on back pain via facebook, and it essentially says the same thing as Dr. Sarno. That it's really the nerves going haywire, the nervous system, not directly a physical, structural problem creating the situation. Check, I believe it. So, now? Well, let's do another countdown, hopefully, I can get it to heal quickly. Here goes...

You can listen to it here:

just to be clear

there is no pain. COMPLETELY gone. completely awesome.

Post 'healed' note #1

Mind connection.Thursday? Freaked out about the future. Hip pain returned, friday, saturday. Night time seemingly incessant dull pain in left hip. Sunday, morning also not fun, yet...better mood...and right now, feels like nothing, nothing is wrong or impeding. That pain is/can be frightening which makes it all the more curious when it just disappears. Don't even know what to expect, but notice that positions i'm in, either sitting or moving are no longer bothersome/painful. This is a long, strange, difficult lesson, but at least, I think I'm progressing. Discipline the mind, it directly affects actions and the body.

4/17...update/closure/the end

I no longer feel pain, not in the left hip, not in the right buttock. It's gone. If I really try to look, there are remnants, but they don't register anymore as dread or pain. What did I do? I let it heal. I kept moving, and something within the last 2 weeks, I began the IF diet, intermittent fasting. Eating 5 days normally and fasting for 2. I think it's made a bit of difference, I'd like to think it did, at least. But the best thing, is that even in the mornings, the pain is relatively minor and nonexistent, I feel "normal". Now, I'm trying to get back strength and endurance. I'm hoping to start Crossfit, once I can handle it financially, in the mean time, it's working on body weight exercises and running. I've come to trust even more that the body knows what to do, and that giving it time to do what it needs, and feeding yourself well, and taking note of what's going on in your mind and life are all interconnected. It's all important. Also? Time is limited, so whatever it is you want to be doing, get on it as quickly as you can. Do what you can, with what you have and start right now. The back pain sucked, the reoccurance of the hip pain and then the right sciatica/butte pain...sucked, but listening to it, really looking at my life and habits has shown me things I need to improve upon. Best of all, I realize that difficult times, experiences, do in fact, come to an end. You just have to hang on. There were so many times, I thought it would be permanent, so many times. And right now? it's almost like I'm waking up, it's like it wasn't even real, that I had trouble with even sitting? what a bad dream. but it wasn't, and now I can, and it's time to move on. I hope I don't have to do any more entries, I hope that if you're reading this, this somehow helps. Just to know that your body can and will heal, but you have to "let" it. I hope you heal soon if you are in pain, I wish you great health. That is it, the pain is gone. The end.

4/10 update

all pain has subsided to sensation, but not pain, annoyance, but not debilitating. though, it still takes some time in the morning to become "normal" the worst feels it is indeed over. and again, in that, another thing creeped in. my right hand, from saturday, a slight "weird sensation" to yesterday, I couldn't hold anything with my wrist turning back. Fear entered, arthritis? muscular? again? wtf?!, and today it is better. I'm working towards complete pain free, and slowly but surely, i'll get there. hopefully, death won't be it...haha...sigh.