Progress 1/23/13

Good news first. To sit, to get up? NO pain! The left hip seems fine, the fear of sitting down and getting up, gone, the dread of getting in and out of the car, the prep to "ease" in/out...gone. However, right butte cheek, upper...ugh. It moved. Annoyance to almost pain level. Out of 10, i'd say 3. Annoying, but not quite limiting, though there is still a fear of "injury". I should just start running. I've been walking and sometimes stop and squat to stretch the lower back out, big tension on the right side. I think there is no doubt that this is tms. OK, by end of the month (or asap) I will heal.

Progress 1/8/13

right knee, noticeable NOT popping when i sit and rotate the right leg on my heel. usually it's like popcorn...pop, pop, pop...well, just one anyway. but, something on right side buttock, feels like sciatica. To offset that, other good development, getting out and in of cars is much much easier, almost forgetting any odd movement or pain. The absence of pain is such a joy. Come on body, come on!

Progress 1/6/13/...the pain is moving around/jumping spot to spot

strange. 2 days ago doing pull ups, it felt like i pinched a nerve. looking over my shoulder to the right was quite painful. yesterday, i don't know what i did, but, something to my back on the right side, painful to bend over...yeah, that's fun. odd thing i notice is that the pain/problem on the left side has disappeared or is very very small now, though, the right side upper buttock, is "upset". sitting, less an ordeal, in fact after the first few minutes of muscles finding their spot, i feel no pain, and the get up is ok. the right, more vocal than the left, again, the left is nearly totally mute. it seems the pain is jumping, from one spot to another. this really makes me think tms. if i had diagnosed the problems separately, there would be very physical distinctions. i feel quite confident and strong today, despite the presence of pain at times. healing 100 % is well within reach, and i think quite soon. being without pain, in any posture, i have such a profound appreciation of this now. the absence of it is such a relief and joy.

progress 12/30

big jump in improvement from yesterday. to sit, to get up, just about/almost normal. very very very happy about that. upon waking up, back was straight, no weird odd angle walk in the morning. oh man, if i start the new year 100% (though it's just another day) that would be so exceedingly awesome. very happy and suprised at the big jump in improvement.

12/29

still there, but receding, thankfully. Slowly but surely it seems. It's an odd feeling sometimes, expecting a pain, and then it's not there. Or worse, not expecting a pain, and then suddenly "greeting" it. Mind is all ready to deal with it, then realizes, hey, nothing's there! and oddly, sort of miss the pain. Miss the pain? While all the while wishing it would leave. Strange, the mind always wanting.

progress 12/16

sitting is much less painful. the to sit, and the to get up. still, after extended periods, tingling in the left front thigh. though, really really grateful that i can sit in a way such that i feel completely relaxed and feel no pain/discomfort vs. no pain/discomfort, but definite muscles activating to prevent pain. This also led to sitting at the desk and leaning heavy on the elbows to keep weight off. so, feeling better, not 100% yet, but hopefully soon. right knee feeling much stronger, though still that sense of 'something's not quite right'. little by little trying to squat a bit and strengthen/exercise it. just happy that there is some sort of relief now. being painless is quite a joy in itself.

progress 11/24

begun to run again, though short distances (run/walk). have continued daily walking. kicking with right leg, no pain, though mental anxiety fear (of pain), pain upon sitting and rising is much less, and disapates faster. tingle in the front of left leg, more noticeable/replacing the left hip knot/pain. thankfully, even this though is just noticeable, but not in pain realm. morning movement is stiff and tight, though movement is comfortable, i don't feel like i'm going to break. back is tight especially when putting on right sock. putting on pants, ok, but fear remains, anxiety of pain in hip/leg. interestingly, right knee was having issues 3 weeks ago. felt like fluid was rushing in and out of the joint as i bent the knee. I could feel it with my hand upon squatting and rising. however, noticed no more popping knee when running! though it still feels a bit on the weaker side. before, i fear i had torn something. no noticeable reason for the knee to go out, out of the blue, on a thursday. it hurt to straighten it and felt swollen. i kept off of it, and have been walking as rehab. it pops when i walk down stairs. but, very happy that no popping when running now. very excited, body is coming back. have to make sure i don't push too hard, but keep moving. eager to move. very thankful for ability to move. very thankful for movement without pain.